Ok, this is going to get very personal for me and I may cry while writing this post but I need to get it out. I need to share my story because I want others going through depression to know they are not alone. I also want you to know that if you are battling depression you can always contact me to talk. I can’t replace a doctor but I can lend a listening ear.
So here it goes. Back in November of 2011, I started sleeping a lot and just didn’t have the motivation to get out of bed. All my thoughts were negative and I didn’t know why. I finally realized that I was depressed but refused to get help because I thought I could get out of this myself. That was my big mistake. Everyone that is depressed needs help. Whether it be a support group, a doctor or just a friend to talk to, you need to do it.
Instead of getting help, I stayed depressed until February of 2012. I slept about 14 hours a day and the rest of the time, I just laid on the couch and watched tv. I would get up to fix my children food but for the most part, my poor husband took care of them. Luckily, I had a husband that understood what I was going through and tried to get me help to no avail. I just didn’t want to hear it. It was if I wanted to stay this way forever. And I didn’t know why.
I also gained 45 pounds during my depression since I ate constantly and didn’t exercise. Remember, I was on the couch all day. Not good. But now, I’m losing this weight, as I’m sure you already guessed. I’m on the Body by Vi challenge now and doing great.
Finally I figured out that I needed help. So, I went and talked to a psychiatrist. I finally realized that my bad thoughts were ruling my life. My thoughts of uselessness and the world was against me was hurting me tremendously. I knew right then I needed to change that.
I started meditating. I now recommend meditation to everyone I meet and I recommend it to you, whether you are depressed or not. Meditation helps you control your thoughts and clear your mind for a few minutes to an hour a day. You then can easily throw out negative thoughts and start thinking positive thoughts. Meditation saved me in a way I couldn’t have been saved otherwise.
I am the reason I’m not depressed anymore. You must realize that in order to get out of a depression, it is a choice. You choose to get help, you choose to take medication, you choose your thoughts. And you can choose to be happy with all or any of those tools.
You can beat this, I have faith in you. I know that if I beat it, anyone can. Find something that motivates you. With me it was blogging and my diet plan with Body by Vi. I found a new meaning for my life and that is to help others find meaning in theirs, reach their weight loss goals or just be there for them.
I now play with my children daily, write in my journal (a journal is a great tool to help you fight your depression as well), write in my blog daily and work my business daily. I wake up with a purpose. Please find a purpose. You have one even if you don’t know it. And like I said before, I’m here to help you. Just contact me.